Friday, October 10, 2008

Introduction

These stories are my mom's reminisces about growing up in rural Kansas in the 30's.
I hope you enjoy them! I blogged them in alphabetical order -- if you would like to read them in chronological order, use this table of contents as a guide:
TABLE OF CONTENTS

Monday, September 8, 2008

THE YARN IN THE COMFORTER

It was Sunday afternoon and Daddy was resting on the bed in the kitchen bedroom. Jenny climbed up beside him on the soft yarn-tied comforter and began pulling out the bits of brightly colored yarn one by one.

“I wouldn’t do that if I were you,” warned Daddy.

“Why?”

“Well, when I was a little boy, one time my Mother was gone and I pulled out the yarn from all the comforters on all the beds in the house.”

“Where was she?”

“Oh, she’d gone to club, and when she got home and saw what I’d done, I got a good paddling.”

Later in the day Jenny said to Mother, “I didn’t know Grandma ever belonged to club.”

“She didn’t. Grandma never belonged to any club in her life. She had ten children and a lazy husband and there was never any time or money for anything like clubs. What ever made you think she did?”

“Daddy said he pulled the yarn out of all the comforters when he was a little boy and his Mother was at club.“

Mother laughed and said, “Well, I guess Daddy always has been a good one with the yarns.”

WHEN THE SAINTS COME MARCHIN’ IN

Jenny knew that her Mother’s parents were dead. They had been dead before Margaret was born. Every year, for as long as Jenny could remember, Mother had cut some yellow roses to put on their graves at Decoration Day. She had heard that someday there was to be a day of judgment when all the people who had ever lived would suddenly rise up out of their graves and come to life again.

Mother often mentioned her parents when telling of the things that had happened when
she was little. Jenny wished she could have known them. She wondered if they would have liked her.

“Say, Mother,” Jenny said one morning.

“What do you want, Honey?”

“S’pose all of a sudden all of my grandparents and great grandparents and people of all ages way back to the beginning would become alive and start walking down the road past the house. Would they make a line clear up to the corner?”

“Oh, further than that. It would be a lot of people, you know.”

Jenny could picture them, a great line of men, women, and children walking single file down the road. Most of the men and women would be tall and skinny. They would be dressed in old fashioned clothing. It would be even more exciting than having the men in a coyote hunt walk past. She would stand at the mailbox and wave hello to each person as they passed by. Maybe she would tell them who she was. Maybe there would be someone in the line who looked just like her. There ought to be, out of this many relatives. People were always saying she looked like somebody on one side of the family or the other. Maybe it would take all morning for the people to pass by. Maybe all day, or maybe several days and several nights.

Jenny thought about the man and woman at the end of the line. Even they would be her great great great great great ... how many greats she couldn’t imagine. What would they look like? What would their names be? Why, Adam and Eve, of course.

Sometimes Jenny was overwhelmed by her own thoughts.

WHEN THE ROOF LEAKED

It started to rain hard that afternoon. Soon there were little puddles standing all around in the yard. More rain fell into the puddles. Jenny thought the bigger rain drops looked like duck’s feet as they splashed into the puddles. Sometimes they looked like corn flakes.

Drip drip plip plop. The roof was leaking onto the floor by the stove. Mother set the dishpan under the leaking place. Now it went, ”Plink plink plank. Drip drop plip plop. Mother got another pan. Now there were two plink plink planks. Drip drip plop plink plink plank. The drips and planks made music in the kitchen. Mother got more pans, kettles and buckets until the kitchen floor was nearly covered with things to hold the water that leaked through the kitchen roof. There had been a bad hail storm about a week ago.

“I told you you should have fixed that roof last week,” Mother said to Daddy. “Now it’s leaking like a sieve.”

They moved the kitchen furniture into the into the adjoining bedroom and the dining room. Mother put on an old raincoat and boots as she moved from pantry to kitchen to bedroom. Jenny and Margaret were milling around in the dining room and the kitchen. Daddy made coffee on the dining room heating stove. Mother put plates and cups and silverware and a bowl of cold baked beans and a big plate of bologna sandwiches on the table. It was crowded, but they still managed to squeeze around the table in the bedroom for supper. As Jenny sat in her high chair eating her bologna sandwich, she thought the meal tasted extra good tonight.

Jenny could hear the frogs singing in the draw. They always sang after a big rain. Sometimes they sounded like lots of water rushing. There was lots of water in the kitchen.

“It sure is nice,” Jenny thought happily to herself, “when the roof leaks and you have to eat in the bedroom.”

WHEN MOTHER WAS SICK

Mother had just finished the breakfast dishes that summer morning. She threw the dishwater out the east door and hung up the dishpan. Then she made her way into the bedroom off the kitchen and lay down on the bed.

“Mother! Are you sick? What’s the matter?” Mother never laid down at this time of the morning and seldom in the afternoon unless it was on a Sunday.

“I can’t go on any longer,” answered Mother. “I’ll just have to lay down for a little while. I must have caught this summer complaint that’s been going around.”

Jenny went into the bedroom and looked at Mother. She started to climb on the bed beside her.

“You run along and play, honey. I don’t feel very good.”

“Are you goin’ to git up pretty soon?”

“Maybe. Now be a good girl.”

Jenny went back out to the kitchen. Margaret was bouncing a rubber ball outside. The kitchen seemed empty and quiet. There was no clatter of cooking, no smell of bread, cake or pie baking. The floor needed sweeping. Jenny could hear the flies buzzing and the clock ticking. A hen was singing a contented hen song from somewhere in the yard. The yellow morning sun shone through the cracked places in the dark green window shade on the east window, making a pattern of branches on the floor and part of the wall.

“Jenny went to the bedroom and said, “I’m goin’ outside.”

“All right. Why don’t you see what Margaret is doing?”

Jenny went out the screen door, which was black with flies, letting it bang behind her and disrupting the flies so that they flew up in a cloud. Margaret was still bouncing the ball up and down.

“Do you want to play with me? I’ll let you chase the ball when I miss it.”

“Okay.”

Margaret was being nice to Jenny today. They didn’t even quarrel. It was fun, for a while,
to chase the elusive ball, but the sun was hot, and they tired of the game, and went back inside the house. Mother was throwing up into the wash pan. The throw-up had a bad sour smell. She had gotten the chamber pot from the closet, because she had diarrhea too, and knew she wouldn’t be able to make it to the outdoor toilet in time. An awful smell came from the chamber pot. too.

“Poor Mother,” sympathized Margaret.

“Poor Mother,” murmured Jenny.

Mother went back to bed. Near the east door sat a bushel basket of blue plums, ripening in the sun, waiting to be canned or made into preserves.

“Can I have a plum?” Jenny asked.

“Go ahead.”

Jenny put a whole plum into her mouth, making her cheek bulge. She punctured it with her teeth and the sweet juice oozed out. Next she chewed on the plum; the skin was more sour than the rest, but it was good too. She threw the seed out the door, disturbing more flies from the black curtain of flies on the screen. Some came into the house. She ate several more plums, throwing the seeds into the cob basket.

A car came down the road, leaving a cloud of dust behind. It was Ernie, the rural mail carrier.

“I’m going to meet the mail carrier,” Margaret announced importantly.

Jenny ate another plum. Margaret returned shortly.

“What was the mail?” Mother called from the bedroom.

“Just the Daily. I talked to Ernie.”

“What did he have to say?”

“I told him you were sick with flu and he said that was too bad and that lots of people in town were having the flu too.”

Margaret spread the newspaper on the dining room rug and began reading the funnies to herself. Jenny ate another plum. The morning dragged on. Finally Daddy came in from the field. Jenny and Margaret were both glad to see him.

“Read me the funnies, Daddy,” Jenny begged, tugging at his hand.

Daddy immediately inquired, “Where’s Mother?”

“She’s sick,” Margaret explained. Got the flu.”

Daddy went into the bedroom.

“Feeling pretty tough, are you Mother?” he asked softly.

“I felt faint and had to go to bed. I’ve been vomiting and running off the bowels all morning. I must have caught the summer complaint at the picnic last week.”

“You stay right there. I’ll take care of everything. What do you want me to fix for dinner?”

“Oh, just fry some eggs and open up a can of corn.”

Jenny followed Daddy around the room as he started a fire in the kitchen range and began preparing the noon meal. Margaret brought in a basket of cobs and set the table. Daddy cursed under his breath as he dropped some eggshell into the eggs in the skillet. He opened a can of corn and put it into a pan on the stove, but burned it a little. He made coffee for himself. Margaret set the table and got out the loaf of home made bread and some butter.

“Isn’t Mother goin’ to eat ?” Jenny asked, as just the three of them sat at the table, but nobody answered. Daddy cut up Jenny’s egg, but it was all crisp around the outside and scratchy to her throat when she tried to swallow it. She put her fork down. He put some corn onto her plate, but part of it was brown and burned and she couldn’t eat it either.

“Eat your bread and butter, Sis,” Daddy coaxed.

Jenny glanced at the thick uneven slab of bread.

“Mother doesn’t cut it that way,” she whined, and refused to touch it.

Daddy leaned back in his chair and read the newspaper and then said he had to go back to the field. He told Margaret that she should go ahead and wash the dishes. He went out to the tractor shed to get gasoline for his tractor and then climbed onto the tractor seat. The tractor made its pop pop sound as he drove it out of the driveway and on up the road.

Jenny picked up a plum and went outside to the brick walk where the yellow cat was sitting in the sun. She squatted down beside the cat.

“Are you hungry?” she asked it.

The cat said,”Yow.,” as if in reply. When it “yowed,” Jenny looked closely at the inside of its mouth. Mother had said that all cats have worms under their tongues, but Jenny could never see any. When she finished her plum, she placed the seed beside the cat’s soft paw. It sniffed at the seed and looked up inquiringly at Jenny for something more palatable. It missed the usual offering of table scraps. Sometimes Mother made milk gravy for the cats and dogs when there weren’t enough table scraps.

Margaret washed the dishes and told Jenny to dry them and whispered to her that if she didn’t, she’d wash her face with the dish rag. Jenny dried them as best she knew how. They felt greasy and smelled funny. She put the knives and forks away, but couldn’t reach the cupboard to put the dishes away, so Margaret did this.

“That’s a good helper,” Mother told Margaret.

“I helped too,” Jenny said. She ran her hand along the top of the oilcloth on the kitchen table. It felt greasy. Her face and hands felt greasy and sticky . The beds weren’t made and the house had a topsy turvy look. She ate two more plums. They didn’t taste as good as they had in the morning. The plums didn’t quite reach the top of the basket now.

Jenny went into the dining room and lay down on the rug, soon falling asleep. When she awoke, her tummy ached. She went to the bed where Mother was and started crying a little.

“What’s wrong, sweetheart?”

“My tummy hurts.”

Mother took one look at her and hurried to get the wash pan. She lifted Jenny to the bed and put the wash pan on a chair beside the bed. Then she put her hand on Jenny’s forehead. Jenny’s stomach gave a few painful jerks and out of her mouth and nose and into the wash pan came plum skins, plum pulp and plum juice. Her eyes watered and she cried some more. The wash pan kept filling up with plums, plums and more plums. They tasted terrible and her stomach kept jerking.

“My, but you ate a lot of plums!” said Mother in surprise. “Poor little dumpling. Looks like you caught the summer complaint too.”

WEED SEEDS

Jenny was strolling around in the yard north of the house one morning. in April. She walked among the sour dock which grew as high as her head It was like being in a forest. As she pulled off a long green leaf, she noticed the clusters of seeds on the sour dock. They were starting to turn brown. She decided to pick some for her playhouse. She could play that the seeds were cereal.

Jenny went to the empty cans Mother had thrown away behind the chicken house. She selected a large Hershey’s cocoa can and decided it would do. She took the can and went back to the weed forest and began sliding off handfuls of seeds into the cocoa can. She made plans to feed the seeds to her “children,” two old dolls that had been relegated to the playhouse.

“Now eat your cereal,” she would say, “or Mama will have to spank.” Jenny had never been spanked for not eating food, but she knew of children who had. It would turn out that the “children” wouldn’t want their cereal. She would turn each one across her knee and spank them. How the children would cry. Then she would say sternly, “Hush now, or Mama will give you something more to bawl about.” When the cocoa can was heaped full, she took it to her outdoor playhouse in an abandoned hog house and set it in her orange crate cupboard.

She felt thirsty and tired, so she went to the house and dipped a dipper full of water from the water pail, taking deep gulps of water and letting the dipper drip on the kitchen floor. Mother had made chocolate pie for dinner and had saved the pan for Jenny to scrape out with a spoon. It always tasted much better this way than it ever did in the pie. She sometimes wondered who scraped out the cake and pie bowls and pans in homes where there were no children.

Soon after dinner that noon, Jenny’s hands and fingers felt hot and itchy. She saw that they were covered with little red pimples.

“Look here, “ she said to Daddy, and spread her hands out before him. Daddy called Mother’s attention to the spots. They wanted to know where she had been playing that morning.

“I slid brown seeds from those tall weeds north of the house into a cocoa can ,” she told them

“You didn’t eat any, did you?”

“No, of course not. They were pretend food for my old dolls in the playhouse.”
They told her this was sour dock and that she should stay out of it. Then Mother made a smooth white paste from baking soda and water and put it on Jenny’s hands and fingers . It felt cool and soothing and made the itching stop for a while. Whenever it began to itch again, Mother would put on more paste. By evening, the spots were gone.

Jenny thought about the cocoa can with the weed seeds in it. Tomorrow she was going to dump them in the ditch. They wouldn’t have been good for her “children” anyhow.

WEDNESDAY’S CHILD

      
Wednesday’s child is full of woe.


Hank grew to be a tall, lean, straight backed, handsome man with coal black hair and a pleasant respectful attitude toward those he trusted. He would do anything for a friend, but in his mind, most of the world was against him and he was quick to take offense. As the years went by, he appeared destined for bachelorhood, but when he was in his late thirties, he was charmed by the spontaneity, the good nature, happy laughter and flirtatiousness of seventeen year old Beulah, who had moved from Arkansas to the small town in Kansas, with her family, where they ran the town’s only hotel. Hank and Beulah were soon married, and the two of them and his beloved mother, who had no one else in the world, moved to the tiny house on the farm located on fertile creek bottom land across the road from the farm where Jenny’s family was to live. Hank was as lean as Beulah was fat. They were like Mr. and Mrs. Jack Sprat, or perhaps a nail and a pumpkin. When Hank sat there so straight and lean in his cast iron tractor seat, with his flat cap on his head, from a distance, he looked just like a nail. Though both Hank and Beulah worked hard, and the land was good, poor business decisions were made and they struggled to eke out a living when the dry years of the thirties came along. It almost seemed as if he willed himself to fail, thinking it his lot in life. He had never experienced much success and seemed unable to pull himself up and overcome adversity as so many do.

UNJUSTLY PUNISHED

Jenny enjoyed hearing Mother and Daddy tell about things that happened during their childhood. Some of this was way back in the late 1800’s, and when Jenny compared it to the arid, dusty, grayer, browner world of the 1930’s, she thought that their lives must have been far different from hers. Crops and gardens grew in abundance, colors were brighter, the earth was rich and fertile, and every day must have been exciting. Children were polite and obeyed their parents, people dressed in wonderful clothing, there were many brothers and sisters, and a child never felt lonely. Some things were worse though, and the bad things along with the good things, gave an interesting texture to the stories her parents now told.

“Tell about the time you got a spanking because of the fan,” Jenny would beg her Mother, following her around the kitchen while she cooked dinner, or cleaned the house, or tended the fire.

“When I was 5 years old I had a beautiful fan. It was the only pretty thing I had that was all mine. It unfolded to show a picture of a pretty little girl with bright flowers all around her. When I fanned with it , I felt a pleasant cool breeze on my face. My oldest sister, Ada, who was 6 years older than I was, had a friend named Caroline over to visit one hot summer day. I was unfolding and admiring the fan, and Caroline grabbed it and said that now it was her fan and she was going to take it home with her. I said she couldn’t have my fan and started to cry and chased her around the room trying to get the fan back. When my Mother heard the fuss I was making, she said I shouldn’t be noisy and rude to guests, and she turned me over her knee and gave me a hard spanking. Some of the other children snickered behind their hands and I went into a dark corner and sobbed for a long time. “

“Did Caroline take the fan home with her?”

“No, she didn’t , but after that, I couldn’t look at my fan without thinking about the spanking and feeling that I was a bad child.”

“But that wasn’t fair. I wish she would have spanked that mean old Caroline.”

“No, it wasn’t fair, but my Mother was so busy she didn’t think she had time to ask any questions.”

“Didn’t she care about how you felt?”

“She cared a lot more about what other people might say about how she was raising her children.”


“Are you still mad at her?”

“No. She did so many other good things that I forgave her, but I will never forget that unfair spanking.”
Jenny was glad Mother wasn’t like this. Once, when Jenny was four, Mother was reading the newspaper, and everything was so quiet that Jenny went over to her Mother and screamed in her ear. Mother gave her a stinging slap on the face and said, “Don’t you ever scream in anyone’s ear. It might break their ear drum or cause them to go deaf.” A few tears came into Jenny’s eyes. Although she hadn’t meant to do any harm, she now felt very foolish and knew she deserved this slap. It took her by complete surprise and was the only time Mother had ever punished her.

Dad too, remembered something worse than this from his boyhood. His parents had a large family of 4 girls and 6 boys. They lived in poverty on a neglected farm. As soon as the boys were old enough to do farm work, his father put them to work in the barn and in the fields and he dressed in his good suit and retired to the living room where he sat around and read all day. That was what boys were for. You put them to work so you could live a life of ease. Jenny’s Dad was the second oldest son, and by the time he was 14, he had learned the rudiments of farm work and handling the farm animals.
Most of Dad’s narratives were told over the dinner and supper tables.

“Tell us about that beating your father gave you,” Jenny and Margaret would say. This was one of their favorites.

“When I was about 14,” Dad began, “I was plowing in the north forty. It was a fine summer morning, and I thought if I plowed 2 more rounds, I could get finished by dinner. I was hungry and my stomach was growling, but it was cloudy and I couldn’t see the sun, so it seemed earlier to me than it was. I thought I had plenty of time and that my father would be so surprised and proud of me because I had gotten it done so fast. When I brought the horses in to the tank by the barn, my father was there waiting for me.

’Young man,’ he said, ‘You're an hour late. Just what have you been doing?’

‘I’ve just been workin’ my butt off, that’s what, while you’ve been sittin’ around on yours.' Then my father said, ‘Don’t you be insolent with me. I’ll teach you a lesson.‘

He was getting madder all the time and then he picked up a stick from the ground and beat me unmercifully across the back and shoulders.’

‘You can just go without your dinner, too.’"

Jenny’s Dad never forgot nor forgave his unjust punishment. Though he was always dutiful toward his father, after this he could feel neither respect nor affection for him.

Jenny felt certain that Dad would never punish her unfairly. She had only gotten one paddling from him. When she was five, one long winter evening she sassed him on purpose just to see if he really would paddle her as he had Margaret the times she sassed him back. He turned her across his knee and paddled her with the back of the hairbrush, but not very hard. Jenny knew she had that coming to her.

UNDER THE APRICOT TREE

Uncle Len’s empty left sleeve was always tucked into his overall pocket. Once in a while, to tease the children, he would pull out the sleeve that was empty up to the shoulder and ask them if they could do that.

Jenny liked Uncle Len. He looked something like Daddy, only he talked slower. He always had a twinkle in his eyes. He never complained of the loss of his arm. Folks that knew him hardly thought of it any more. It had happened about ten years ago. During an exchange of labor, his hand and sleeve had been caught in a moving chain on a piece of machinery and his entire arm was torn off at the shoulder before they could stop the machine or realized what had happened.

“Mother, what did they do with Uncle Len’s arm?” Jenny suddenly asked. He had been there that morning. It was a delicate subject, but Mother decided she’d better answer.

“They put it in a metal box and buried it under the apricot tree south of the potato patch.”

“Why did they do that?”

“Well, they had to do something with it. They didn’t want to just leave it lying around for the chickens to peck at. A person’s arm is an important part of him. It seemed like the only decent thing to do. They buried it on our place because we own the land and will be here for a long time.”

Jenny went out to the apricot tree. She thought of the arm in its box and wondered how it must have looked. Had it been all bloody? Had they buried it in a sleeve, or bare? Was the hand open or closed.? Maybe someone said a prayer over the arm. When Uncle Len went to Heaven, would he get his arm back? There was a low spot under the apricot tree where someone might have dug a hole one time. Who would have dug the hole? Daddy? One of her Uncles? One of the neighbors? Jenny looked at the dying tree. She remembered that long ago they had eaten apricots from it. Now the drought had made all but one of the branches die. They were gray and bare. Golden sap had oozed and hardened in a low fork. She pulled off some little beads of it. Crack! She snapped off a dead branch and wondered why things had to die.

TREES


I think that I shall never see
A poem lovely as a tree
A tree that looks at God all day
And lifts her leafy arms to pray
From “Trees” by Joyce Kilmer


During the dry years, many of the trees had died. Even the mulberry, so well adapted to Kansas weather, had suffered a loss of nearly half of its row of trees as the water table dropped. The dead trees stood skeletal and gray. Most of the trees which had once shaded the house were gone. The three big cedar trees west of the house were too far away to be of much help. The box elders and the cottonwoods in the draw had survived, but the pasture hedge of thorny osage oranges suffered heavy damage too. Mother deplored the loss of the trees, as she remembered the tree shaded house and yard of her childhood home.

Jenny loved all trees, They made cool shade, their leaves rustled in the wind, they brought the birds they kept the ground underneath from washing away, and some were nice to climb. When she saw the tiny trees across the road from the plum thicket, beneath the box elder, the one Daddy used for making whistles, she decided she would dig up some and plant them in the yard. She took the heavy spade and a cardboard box and dug as many as she could carry. It was hard work, but she felt happy. She planted them shallowly on the hard dry ground northeast of the house and could imagine a lovely grove there.

As soon as Daddy got off the tractor to come in for dinner, she went over to him and said, “Come see my little trees. When these grow tall, we will have cool shade”, but alas the trees were limp and wilted in the hot sun and the chickens had scratched up most of them.

Daddy said, “Why that’s poison ivy. We’d better get rid of it.” He put on his work gloves and took them away. Luckily, Jenny didn’t get poison ivy, but she felt crushed all that day at the failed plan.

TOWN

Jenny pressed her nose flat against the car window and looked down at the road. The road was a swift stream running under them and the car was standing still.

“Hey, Margaret! When you do this it looks like the road’s moving. You try it.”

“That's nothing,” was Margaret’s response. I’ve seen that lots of times.”

Jenny said,”Oh,” and quit looking because it wasn’t any fun now.

They drove up and down hills, past farm houses and over small bridges, until at last they were in town. Mother turned around to arrange Jenny’s fuzzy green tam because it had slid off her silky fine hair and was way down over one ear. Margaret’s tam was red. They had gotten them last year at Aunt Olivia’s hat shop because they matched their coats.

Daddy parked the car in front of the produce station and carried in the eggs and cream, stopping to chat with some people inside. Mother, Margaret and Jenny got out of the car and walked on up the main street sidewalk, past stores with awnings, past the corner drinking fountain and other wonders. Mother took a tight hold of Jenny’s hand whenever they crossed the street. They saw Aunt Pearl, so Mother stopped to talk with her. Margaret went on by herself, as she was old enough to do this. It seemed to Jenny that Margaret always got to do such exciting things. She thought that Mother would never be finished talking to Aunt Pearl. All she could gather from their conversation were bits of, “I said ----------” and “So she said ---------,” and so forth. She tugged at Mother’s hand and whined, “Let’s go,” but Mother paid no attention.

As they stood there, Jenny watched the parade of people pass by: little girls and big girls, girls with pig tails, girls with straight hair like her own and some with curly hair, rowdy or shy little boys, skinny people, fat people, people with frowns on their faces and people with smiles, women with funny hats, women carrying babies, men dressed in their Sunday best and men in overalls and unionalls. A very fat man walked by with a short curved pipe in his mouth . He had a very big mole growing under one eye. Jenny watched them all, all these aliens.

Mother met other people she knew and they would ask, “How are you Jenny?” and she would say with exaggerated exuberance, “Just fine,” the way Daddy had taught her long ago when she was two. Some of them would say, “My, you’re growing,” and some would ask how old she was. Whenever Mother stopped too long, Jenny would tug at her hand again and whine, “Let’s go,” but it never did any good.

Mother bought a spool of thread at the department store, the one where they sent the change down from the balcony on a wire in little buckets. Jenny looked up and saw a slanting window in the store’s ceiling. She had to look several times to be sure it really was a window. The counters were so high that she couldn’t see what was on them. Mother lifted her up so that she could see some of the things. On the way out of the store, Jenny stopped suddenly and stared at the store’s window display. There were several long necked heads on stands. and the clerk they had seen in the store was putting a different hat on one of them. Jenny clutched Mother’s hand tightly.

“Those aren’t real people,” Mother explained. They are just dummies or mannequins,” but Jenny still thought they might be the heads of dead people. One of the ladies at Mother’s club looked just like one of them. Just then the six o'clock whistle blew with a penetrating eerie sound. Jenny had the idea there might be some connection between the whistle blowing and the window dummies. It was all so strange and a little frightening,

Next they went to the grocery store. The clerk that waited on them wore a bright flowered smock. She had a loud shrill voice and her hands and fingers were long with big blue veins, but she spoke kindly to Jenny. Daddy and Margaret came in and Daddy carried out the groceries.

“How much did the produce bring this week?” Mother asked him.

“Six dollars and a few cents.”

“Isn’t that the limit! We practically have to give it away, when you think of the amount we pay for feed.”

They started home in the car. Daddy had bought a big mixed bag of lemon drops and chocolate stars from the candy cases at the Variety store for a dime. Mother said he just should have bought a nickel’s worth. She said they could all have some after they got home and changed into their everyday clothes.

Margaret stood on her knees and looked through the back car window toward town.

“Look at that big black thing,” she said pointing to the standpipe. Jenny looked too. It stood straight up in the air, higher than anything else in town. Mother said that they blew the six o’clock whistle from the standpipe. Jenny thought it must take a very big thing to make such a big noise. She thought again of the long necked dummies in the store window.

Margaret turned around again and said, “I still see the big black thing.” They made a game out of it, taking turns looking every so often and saying, “I still see the big black thing.” They drove and drove and they could still see he big black thing, though it seemed to be getting smaller.

When they came to top of the hill that went down to their house, and could see the tops of the tall cottonwood trees, they looked back and could still see the big black thing looming up on the horizon like a thin black needle. As they drove down the hill, it disappeared. Jenny decided that maybe town wasn’t as far away as she had thought, if you could see the big black thing and the cottonwood trees at the same time.

TO CATCH A BIRD


Sparrow, Sparrow,
You’re so pretty
Don’t you fly away.


The Barnes family’s closest neighbors, Hank and Beulah Painter, lived in a tiny unpainted house up a narrow one-car lane one half mile to the west. Every day Beulah and some of her children would go bouncing by on their way to town in their black Model-T Ford, top down in summer, making loud sputtering noises, followed by a cloud of slowly settling dust. Often she stopped by for a chat with Jenny’s Mother, Mae. Jenny liked this as Beulah, a large red haired woman, had a ready hearty laugh, liked to joke, and would usually have some colorful bit of news to tell them. Once, when Jenny was creeping carefully around under the big cedar trees in the front yard, Beulah stopped her car in the road for a minute.

“What do you think you’re doing, Jennifer Jane?”

“I’m tryin’ to catch a bird,” Jenny told her, pointing to a flock of sparrows, pecking away at the ground under the cedars.

“What you need is a little salt to put on its tail,” Beulah laughed, and drove on to town.

Jenny eagerly ran to the kitchen, where Mother was baking bread, saying breathlessly, “I need the salt shaker.”

“What for?”

“To catch a bird. If I put salt on its tail, I can catch one. Beulah said so.”

Mother laughed, “If you can get closed enough to put salt on a bird’s tail, I suppose you could catch one. But when they see you getting too close, they always fly away. The part about the salt is just an old joke.”

Jenny felt disappointed and a little foolish. She should have known better.

TOADY

This was a wonderful special time, the time in her life when Mother called her Toady. Jenny was too young to wonder what it meant, or to consider why Mother had chosen such a term of endearment. As she grew older, she would be embarrassed if anyone called her by her old nickname. But Jenny was only two, and yet to be disturbed by feelings of personal vanity.

Jenny toddled about, not very gracefully, on her short legs, taking tiny bumpy steps, which were something like hops. In a sweetly impulsive mood, Mother would sometimes look at this sweet lump of a child and lovingly call her Toady. At such a time Jenny felt that life was complete; she was secure, content and surrounded by happiness. It was quite enough to bask in the warmth of being loved.

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

THE WAR YEARS

Jenny would never forget that Sunday afternoon on December seventh, nineteen forty one, when Aunt Gladys stopped by on her way home from town to ask if they had heard the news. They hadn’t turned on the radio yet that day, so they didn’t know what had happened.

“The Japs bombed Pearl Harbor,” she said. America had a big naval base in Hawaii, so the probability of war was likely. President Roosevelt was going to address the American people that night. War! It just couldn’t be. Yes, they had been hearing all about the war in Europe, about Hitler’s conquests, but America was going to stay out of this one. Hadn’t the president said so? They were safe. This should not have been a complete surprise. There had been far off drum beats, but they chose to ignore these. They immediately turned on the Silvertone radio they had gotten from Sears that fall after the installation of the 32 volt light plant Dad had bought at a community sale. The radio had added a new dimension to their lives. Of course the radio was full of nothing but the news of the bombing and the terrible casualties. That night at eight o’clock, FDR made his famous address where he declared that December seventh, nineteen hundred and forty one would live on forever as a day of infamy. We were now at war with the Axis powers, Japan, Germany, Italy and Russia, its heads of state being Emperor Hirohito, Adolph Hitler, Benito Mussolini and Joseph Stalin.

Jenny had a romantic unrealistic view of war. The U.S. would “win,” of course. We were invincible. She didn’t realize that nobody ever wins a war. She thrilled to the stirring war songs and the incredibly sad songs as well. Who could forget Kate Smith’s, “God Bless America,” or the hauntingly sad, “Bluebirds Over The White Cliffs of Dover.” The news media also glorified and romanticized the war and much emphasis was placed on keeping up the morale of the soldiers, and to keep up the morale of the American people, they were not informed as to how bad the war really was. There were many secrets about what was happening. America was unprepared for such a war and there were terrible losses of American troops. America became mobilized as quickly as it could, and everything went into the war effort. The cream of America’s young men was drafted to go into battle. Patriotism was at an all time high. To question the war was viewed as treasonous.

It was not until Jenny’s cousin Bill , a navigator in the air force, had his plane shot down over the Pacific and was lost forever, and Jenny observed Aunt Ada’s grief, that the impact of the war became more of a reality. She continued to cheer the enemy’s losses, however. Sometimes she had nightmares about the Germans and the Japanese flying directly over their farm and bombing them. The tide on the western front began to turn when Hitler made his fatal mistake by invading vast Russia and the German soldiers froze to death and died like flies in the harsh Russian winter. Americans rejoiced at the dropping of the atomic bombs on the Japanese cities of Hiroshima and Nagasaki, not considering at the time, that this could someday happen to them. In nineteen forty six the war was officially over, but though there was some healing, much of the suffering would continue forever in a never ending chain of events.

Not until years later, after she read stories about the Holocaust and the widespread devastation of war, and got to know some victims and survivors of the war, did Jenny become became a pacifist and a strong supporter of war protests.

THE VACCINATION

Diphtheria. Jenny recognized it as a big terrible word because “Sonny,” the little neighbor boy, was very sick with diphtheria. He hadn’t been able to swallow anything and had been out of his head with a high fever. Daddy had gone over at night to help. Jenny hoped he hadn’t brought any germs home. She had heard that you got white spots on your throat and had to have it swabbed. Whole families of children used to die from this in the old days and maybe they still could.

Daddy had gone into town that very afternoon to ask the doctor about getting Jenny and Margaret vaccinated tomorrow. He came home with two giant sticks of peppermint. Neither Jenny nor Mother liked the taste of peppermint, but Jenny thought it was very pretty and it made her happy just to look at it. Daddy said that tomorrow they were going to the Doctor’s to be vaccinated.

“I don’t want to,” said Margaret..”Some of the kids at school got diphtheria vaccinations and they said it hurt a whole lot.”

“The reason you must get vaccinated,” Mother told them, “is to keep from getting diphtheria. This would hurt a whole lot worse than a vaccination, and besides, you could die from diphtheria.”

Daddy explained how the vaccination was done. “The doctor will say , ‘let’s roll up your sleeve.’ Then Elsie will put some medicine on your arm with a piece of cotton and the doctor will stick a special needle with serum in it and stick it in your arm. It will sting a little bit and that is all. And you won’t even cry. You’ll both be big and brave and smile and say, “That didn’t hardly hurt at all.’ The doctor will think, “My, what brave girls.’”

The next morning they got ready to go to town. The girls wore their lavender flowered long sleeved dresses that Mother had made for them, as the weather was cold. They wore their winter underwear and long stockings.

All the way to town, they talked about the vaccination. Jenny remembered going to the doctor’s once before when Mother had had an x-ray because she thought she might have cancer. When they got to town they parked right in front of the place were the doctor had his office. They climbed a long dark steep flight of stairs and went around the corner opened a door with a glass window and there was the waiting room. They sat in creaky wicker furniture. There were other people in the waiting room. There was a lady with a little boy, a man with a patch over one eye and a fat lady. The clock on the wall ticked slowly. Jenny went over to the fly specked window above the register and looked down on the street far below where small cars crawled along the street and tiny toy- like people walked along the sidewalk. More people kept coming into the waiting room until it was quite crowded. At last Elsie came to the door and said, “Next,” and it was their turn.

All of them went into the inner office. Jenny liked the iodine and gauze and tape smell, although it was a little frightening. The doctor was a plump red-faced man with a wide nose and snow white hair. Jenny thought that if he had whiskers, he would look just like Santa Clause. She decided she liked him.

“We’ll take the little one first,” said the doctor, in a voice so soft, it was almost a whisper. He looked at Mother. “Do you want to hold her?” he asked.

Jenny was indignant. “I don’t want to be held,” she said. “I’m big and brave.”

Daddy lifted Jenny way up in the air and set her on the high black leather examining table.
Mother stood beside her and helped her get her dress and underwear sleeves rolled up. Elsie, a mere slip of a girl, who was the office girl, put cold stuff high on Jenny’s left arm with cotton. The doctor had a big needle. Just as he stuck it into Jenny’s arm and it started to sting, “Daddy said , “Look at the little birdie on the window sill.” Jenny looked, but didn’t see it. The doctor took the needle away.

“That didn’t hurt a bit,” said Jenny proudly.

Margaret, however, began to cry the minute the doctor approached with the needle. Jenny tried to comfort her by saying, “It won’t hurt,” but Margaret was not convinced. Jenny was glad that for once, she had acted even bigger than Margaret.

After supper that evening, Daddy took out his steel tape measure that rolled up into a little round case and showed them how they could play “vaccinate.” The tape looked as though it went right into your arm. They had such fun playing vaccinate.

THE TURNING POINT

Jenny and Mother hurried through Coolidge’s Department Store and up the flight of stairs at the back of the store, as Mother didn’t want to be late for her one o’clock appointment. The beauty parlor was in a balcony over the store. You could look down and watch the people come into the store and they might not even notice that you were watching. Mother didn’t come here often, but today she was to get a permanent wave. Most of the time she wore her hair in a smooth roll at her neckline that she secured with hairpins. It was a classic style and she could cover up the spherical mole on her neck which she considered very ugly. She didn’t like the frizzy look of a permanent and it was also expensive. She didn’t think it was good for her hair, but Daddy liked her hair better curly and she wanted to please him.

Jenny liked the little beauty shop. She had never been up here before. It was bright and clean and had a variety of interesting smells. One of the smells was terrible; it went up your nose and made your eyes water and also made you want to get out of there. Ladies sat patiently under hair dryers or with various kinds of apparatus on their heads. There were magazines to look through, different magazines than anything that came in the mail at home. To Jenny, the best part about the beauty parlor was that it seemed to her a hidden mysterious place, a secret place that not everyone knew about. At least she hadn’t known about it until today. Jenny had come to love secrets. One of the strongest bonds between Jenny and her best friend Susan was the wealth of secrets they shared. There was the Santa Claus secret. Last year they had pieced together various bits of information and solved the Santa Claus puzzle and had extended it to include the Easter rabbit. They made up secret words and codes and games.

At the age of seven and soon to be eight, Jenny’s world was changing and expanding. Her legs were getting longer and thinner, and her face had lost that round baby look. Two terms of school had taught her a lot about people outside the family circle. She had conquered many fears and had learned to do a lot of things by herself. She was becoming generally more independent and could better defend herself against Margaret. She had discovered Susan, a kindred spirit, and
they confided to each other their innermost thoughts and feelings. They understood each other.

Jenny sat on the bright plaid couch and twirled her handkerchief in the air. It had a nickel tied in the corner, and after a while, she would go to the drug store by herself and get a strawberry ice cream cone with her nickel.

The sound of the ceiling fans made a pleasant humming in the quiet store below. Jenny could hear the door opening. An old lady with a cane and dark glasses entered with a little black scotty dog on a leash. This was Mrs. Coolidge and Mother had said she was blind. Jenny wondered how she kept from bumping into things.

Jenny went back to the plaid couch and began to look through some of the magazines. Two little girls about Jenny’s age came into the store. “We would like some red anklets please,” Jenny heard them say, importantly.

“They sure think they’re smart,” she thought to herself. Mother always went with her to buy clothing.

Jenny looked through some more magazines. She was turning through the pages rapidly when a picture caught her eye. It was the picture of a baby inside it’s mother’s stomach. At first she thought it was one of those very old famous paintings of the Baby Jesus and his Mother Mary. Jenny looked at the print at the top of the page which said, “THE BIRTH OF A BABY,” in big black letters. Jenny held the magazine so that no one could see what she was reading. She was afraid someone might ask or might take the magazine away from her. This was something she had been wondering about for a long time and she devoured the pictures hungrily, and as many of the words as she was able to read and understand. There was one picture showing a very tiny thing inside the mother. It didn’t look like a baby; it looked more like a sea creature. There were more such pictures, each with the creature a little bigger, looking more like a real baby. There was a picture of the mother with a sheet over her and doctors and nurses standing around, The most impressive picture was of the doctor holding the crying baby upside down by the ankles and spanking his little bare bottom. A long thick shiny rope like thing was attached to his navel and went under the sheet.

For quite some time Jenny had doubted that babies were brought in the doctor’s black bag. Now she could tell Susan that babies really grew inside their mothers and that doctors operated on them to take them out. That explained why women were so fat before they had babies and the part about the operation explained why they had to be in bed for a while, and why the doctor had to come when a baby was born. She thought it might also be the reason that children were sometimes like their mothers, but she couldn’t imagine why they looked and acted like their fathers too. She looked at the name of the magazine. It said “LIFE” in big red letters. She put the magazine on the bottom of the stack so that she could look at it again later. She was excited about her discovery, but there was no one she could tell it to just now.

“I think I’ll go get an ice cream cone now,” she shouted to Mother, who was under a noisy machine.

“All right,” Mother called back.

Jenny walked gaily down the steps, through the store and into the blistering heat of an unseasonably hot mid-May. She bought a strawberry ice cream cone at the drug store, and after the first few delicious licks, pushed the ice cream to the bottom of the cone with her tongue so that it would last longer. She walked back to the beauty parlor ever so slowly, looking in shop windows as she ate the rest of her ice cream cone and feeling very smug.

Jenny stopped in her tracks as she opened the door of Coolidge’s, for there, buying some shoestrings, was a plump, bald headed, well dressed Negro. Jenny had only seen one other Negro before in her life, and he didn’t look at all like this man. The only Negro in this little town was a thin old fellow whose first name was Vince. He kept sadly to himself, sitting at the bottom of the office stairways along main street, watching people go by. He did odd jobs for pennies. Jenny had always been a little afraid of him. The town kids said a poem about him:

Old Nigger Vince,
Sittin’ on a fence,
Tryin’ to make a dollar
Out of fifteen cents.



Jenny let the door close slowly behind her and scrutinized the black man carefully.
He saw her looking at him. This didn’t surprise him at all. He was accustomed to it.

“Is your name Patty?” he asked in a kindly, soft voice.

“No,” Jenny told him, “My name is Jenny Jane Barnes.”

“I have a little girl named Patty. She can tap dance.”

“So can I ,” Jenny said. “I learned how from a big girl at school.”

“Well, isn’t that fine. Patty must be a little older than you. I’ll tell her about you when I get home.”

The man left the store with his purchase and Jenny went back up to the beauty parlor.

“Did you talk to the darky?” the beauty parlor operator asked.

“Yes,” Jenny answered. “Mother, did you see me? He was a nice man, too.”

A lady who was getting her white hair set in rows of tiny waves said, “There’s gonna be a minstrel show here in town tonight. He must be one of their troupe. If I do say so myself, “Niggers” can sure sing and dance, though that’s about all they’re good for.”

Mother stood up and picked up her purse and paid the beauty operator. She had on a hair net and her hair was pinned tightly to her head.

“How do you like my permanent?” she asked Jenny.

“It’s Okay,” said Jenny, “but it sure stinks.” She didn’t want to tell Mother that she liked it better the way it was before.

She could hardly wait to see Susan. She had so much to tell her.

THE TRIP

Jenny realized that they were far from home and that there were many people around. Last night she had slept on a quilt on the floor beside Mother. Everyone sat around a great big table to eat. Jenny wanted her high chair, but it wasn’t there. Her cousin, a tow head named Susan, sat in a high chair, but she was about twenty two months old and Jenny was about two years and three months old, so Susan was the high chair child. Uncle Wilmer put two catalogues on a chair for Jenny so that she could reach the table. Margaret kept saying, “Please pass the noodles.”

“Sure wish she’d eat like that at home,” Mother said.

Somebody said, “It’s the higher altitude and all that playing they did today.”

The family had taken a short trip to eastern Colorado to visit Daddy’s brother and family. Daddy had just gotten a new chevy the year before and he was very proud of it. Mother and Daddy took great satisfaction in noting that not one other car was able to pass them all the way to Colorado. Another brother followed in his slightly older car with his wife and two little daughters.

It was the first time in Jenny’s lifetime that they had been away from home for more than a few hours. Now home seemed far in the past, almost forgotten. At first,Jenny was confused at having the normal routine so changed, but as long as she could run frequently to Mother, the nucleus of her existence, she was able to adjust rapidly to even the most bewildering situations.

All the rooms were darkened, though it was broad daylight outside. This was due to the newspapers, which covered the windows. They served as protection against the dust, which swept unmercifully across the country, and sifted into every tiny crevice. They also kept out the hot summer sun and were less costly than blinds.

Jenny wandered into the dim bedroom where Aunt Faye was changing baby Ruthie's diaper on the bed atop a rubber sheet.

“Big kickie girl,” said Aunt Faye, as she lifted the baby by the ankles so that her chubby legs and buttocks were in the air, and whisked away the wet diaper. Ruthie chuckled gleefully and wiggled about contentedly on the bed.

“Big kickie girl, big kickie girl,” Aunt Faye cooed again, as she lifted the baby by the ankles once more to sprinkle on soft white talcum powder and slip a dry diaper under her. Jenny knew she had once been a baby herself. Sometimes she wished she still were.

THE TELEPHONE


“Hello, is this Aunt Sarah?”
“No, this is Doctor Wheeze.”
“That’s not my number, Central,”
“Excuse it, if you please.”


The year that Jenny turned seven, Mother said, “Warren, I don’t think we should go another winter without a telephone. I was so scared when Margaret had those awful nosebleeds when you were in Kansas City. How could we call the doctor if someone got hurt? How could we call the neighbors if something happened and we needed help right away?”

Daddy said they’d get a telephone next week. He’d stop at the telephone company when he went to town.

Jenny knew that they had once had a telephone, but this was before she could remember. They’d had it taken out when Daddy got mad at the telephone company because he thought they had charged him too much by billing him twice and they wouldn’t back down. The line ran right up to their kitchen. The live line ran along the road right past their house. She and Margaret could sometimes hear the line humming on their way home from school. Margaret said that was people talking. On top of the tall poles was a pretty blue or clear glass dome shaped like a scoop of ice cream. Sometimes they fell to the ground. Sometimes young fellows with guns would test their marksmanship by shooting and breaking these pretty domes. Jenny found a clear colored one on the ground. It had little beads around the edge. She wished a blue one would have fallen instead. She took the dome home with her. Daddy said it was an insulator that was put there to keep the signal from being grounded.

A few days later the telephone truck drove into the driveway. A man came to the door and said he’d come to install the telephone. He said it wouldn’t take long since the wires were already there. Jenny and Margaret had been eagerly anticipating this and talking about what it would be like to have a telephone. They could hardly wait. In a short time the big brown wooden box was on the wall between the the east kitchen door and the window. Close to the top were two metal rounds that stuck out like bug’s eyes. These were the bells. If you put your hand across them when they were ringing, you could make the ringing more like a buzz. Under the bells was a round black bakelite mouthpiece on a jointed neck that could make it higher or lower. You talked into the mouthpiece. On the left side of the box was a black bakelite receiver attached to a cord. It fit into a hook when you weren’t listening through it. It was shaped like a slender bell and the flared end of the bell just fit your ear. On the right side of the box was a little crank which you turned when you wanted to ring the telephone operator or someone on your line. The telephone operator was called a central girl. When you rang once she would say, “Number please,” and you would say the number you wanted to call. The central girl sat at a switchboard at the telephone office in town. She had learned to plug in the right things to connect the caller to the number they wanted to call. The Barnes family family shared a party line with 10 other people. Their “ring” was three longs. They could hear the rings of everyone else on their line, and if they wanted, could listen in on their conversations. It was called “eavesdropping.” Most of the people on the line eavesdropped, if they had time, so people were careful about what they said on a party line. Eavesdropping was a way to learn about what was happening in the neighborhood.

On the first evening they had the phone, Margaret would rush to the phone and take down the reciever and “listen in” and then report the news to the family. It was exciting.

One family had a clock near the phone that ticked loudly and you could always tell when they were “listening in.” One woman would act insulted if she thought anyone was listening and would say, “I know who you are. Why don’t you stop being so nosy and hang up.” Mother said this woman was the worst gossip in the neighborhood and she must think everyone else was like her. One attractive 17 year old girl had many boyfriends who called. The conversations would be long and full of flirtatious talk and snappy comebacks. Daddy liked to listen to these conversations and if he thought they were talking too long, he would hold the receiver to the mouthpiece where it would make a loud screech and they wouldn’t be able to hear their conversation. This was the signal that their conversation had gone on long enough and that someone else wanted to use the line.

Jenny had to stand on a chair to talk on the phone. She first learned to talk on the phone by ringing the operator and saying, “Time please.” The operator would tell the correct time. After Jenny did this a few times, she felt confident enough to answer the phone herself.

There was an isolated community in the hills to their northwest called Reamsville. It had a filling station, a grocery store, a lodge building, a few houses, a large grist mill which was soon to be moved into town and restored with a beautiful little park built around it known as “The Old Dutch Windmill Park.” A woman named Milly lived with her family in one of the houses and ran a switchboard from her home. She was a good natured congenial person and people often called her for all sorts of things and she usually knew the answers and gave them cheerfully. Some of the central girls in town were snippety and impatient. Most of them were just out of high school.

Every day, usually in mid-morning, Mother would talk with each of her two sisters, Ada and Frances. She enjoyed keeping in touch with them. It seemed to make her happy.

If the phone rang for 10 rings or more that was the alarm signal that there was a disaster. One Sunday in late winter, the Barnes family was having Sunday dinner of roast beef, mashed potatoes and gravy. There was a series of many rings and Margaret took down the receiver and a voice said, “George Stein’s big barn is on fire. Everyone bring pails and gunny sacks.” This was the Uncle George who was married to Mother’s sister, Frances. This was more important then Sunday dinner, and their left their meal on the table and jumped into the car. As they drove over the hill, they could see the black smoke in the northeast. By the time they got there, the barn was in flames. There was a long line of cars on the road leading past Uncle George’s place. Men were hurrying with pails of water from the horse tank and some were beating out the tall dry grass with gunnysacks. It was too late to save the barn, but there was some wind and they could still keep the fire from spreading to the little house on the hill nor far from the barn. Daddy hurried over with his bucket and bags. It was a cold windy day and Mother and Margaret and Jenny stayed in the car where it was warm and away from the fire. The old workhorse, Sam, had been trapped in his stall and Jenny could see his glowing skeleton still standing in the burning embers. Other neighbors came over to the car to talk about the fire. One neighbor woman named Nell came to the car and said she’d just come in and talk with Mother while the men battled the blaze. Nell said some were saying the fire might have been caused by spontaneous combustion from the stored hay in the hayloft that -sometimes could get hot enough to burst into flames. Others said it was probably a spark from Uncle George’s cigarette, as he was known to be a heavy smoker. Aunt Frances came over to the car. By now the wind had died down and the danger to the house was nearly over. She had been helping quench the fire and her face was blackened and she smelled of burned grass. “I felt bad about poor old Sam,” she said, and tears came into her eyes. The fine big barn had “gone up like a tinderbox,” people said. Its walls were crumbling and it was reduced to charred wood and glowing rafters.

There was nothing to do now but go home, so they went home to a cold house with the plates of cold mashed potatoes and roast beef still on the table, of course. Nobody felt like eating, so they saved the food for an early supper and washed and dried and put away the dishes and talked about the fire. It had been quite an afternoon. Jenny thought it was far better than any moving picture show she had ever seen.

Other events they learned about through the general alarm were drownings, tornadoes heading their way, a house fire, blizzards and ice storms, but all these things were unusual events, and most of the time the phone was used just to get information or to have a friendly chat. Jenny was glad they had a telephone and felt sorry for and superior to any family that didn’t.

How fine it was to be able to peer every day at the world beyond their own walls. The telephone”s cheerful ring, with its promise of interesting news, enlivened the long days when time seemed suspended.

THE SQUEAL

When we butcher the pig this morning,” Daddy told Jenny, “You come on out to the garage and we’ll let you have the squeal.”

“Okay,” answered Jenny solemnly. She vaguely wondered what the squeal looked like. A little like the tail, she supposed.

Jenny became so interested in her playing that morning that she forgot all about going out to watch them butcher the pig. When the men came in for the noon meal, they washed the blood off their hands in basins on the brick walk out in back. There was still dried blood on their overalls and shirts.

In the afternoon Jenny ventured outdoors. There was a faint chill in the autumn air. She walked down to the big corn crib. She tried to climb on it a ways, but didn’t get far, as there was nothing to hold to. She pulled out an ear of the hard yellow corn and began shelling the kernels from the cob. Two greedy hens gobbled it down as fast as Jenny could shell it. Before she finished, her fingers were starting to get sore, so she threw the partly shelled ear on the ground and went around to the northwest side of he corn crib.

Jenny suddenly stood still, not daring to move for a minute, for there in a heap beside the corn crib, she saw this horrible thing. She turned around screaming and ran to the house, her feet almost stumbling over in their haste.

“Mother! You have to come and see it,” she called, as she burst open the kitchen door.

“See what, my child?” Mother calmly inquired.

“I can’t tell you . Come on. Hurry!” and she tugged at Mother’s hand so urgently that Mother decided she’d better go right away. It could be important. They walked down to the corn crib, Jenny leading the way, bold now that Mother was along.

Jenny pointed to the thing that lay in a heap beside the corn crib and whispered in hushed awe, “The Squeal!”

“Why, that’s nothing but a pig skin. That’s the skin of the pig they butchered this morning. The chickens, or maybe the dog, dragged it down here. Looks like something sure picked it clean.”

“Will it git me?” Jenny asked apprehensively. It smelled terrible and there were flies all over it.

“No, it can’t hurt you. Look.” Mother picked up a long stick and poked at it. The swarm of flies buzzed up a little ways in the air, but the pig skin continued to lie in a heap.

Jenny felt somewhat reassured. but nevertheless, she didn’t play near the corn crib for several days afterward.

THE SCARY TIME

Jenny was delighted with the two small grinning jack-o-lanterns on the kitchen table. Mother had
scraped the pumpkin meat out of the inside to make a yummy pumpkin pie and Daddy had taken his jack knife and cut wide mouths and triangular noses and eyes in the pumpkin shells. Margaret had set 2 fat little candles in them, which when first lit, made them smell like burning pumpkins, but now began to give off a nice holiday smell of candles. Daddy had gone to his American Legion meeting and Mother was reading the newspaper.

“This is Halloween night,” Margaret said to Jenny, and then she half whispered, “and there’s
witches riding through the air on broomsticks with evil black cats on their backs, and ghosts of the dead are all around, and goblins and bats and monsters and evil spirits and banshees.” Jenny looked apprehensive.

“Don’t let her scare you,” said Mother, “just don’t pay any attention to that nonsense.”

Jenny knew that Mother was right, yet maybe part of what Margaret had told her was true. The
golden kerosene lamplight caused big shadows to be cast on the far wall. Toby, the gray cat, was sitting on a chair in the dark corner of the room. Jenny thought his yellow eyes looked wild tonight. Perhaps after they were all in bed, an evil witch would take him for a ride on her broomstick over houses and up by the moon. Toby could never tell anyone though, and the next day he would curl up by the fire just as if nothing had happened.

Margaret emerged from the kitchen bedroom with a pillow case over her head saying, “Fee fie foe
fum. I smell the blood of an Englishman.” Then her voice became ghostly and she groaned,”I am the ghost of poor Margaret and I have come to haunt you.” Then she curled her fingers grotesquely and lunged toward Jenny. Jenny screamed and backed into a chair, knocking it over. Margaret was such a convincing actress.

“Kids!” scolded Mother, “why can’t you be good? You stop that, Margaret.”

Margaret slipped the pillow case off and laughed hideously. Jenny blew out her jack-o-lantern candle and pulled it out and rolled it into a ball between the palms of her hands.

“Dummy. Now you won’t be able to light yours,” Margaret said. “I’m going to blow mine out to
save the candle so I can light it again tonight when it gets darker.”

“I don’t care,” said Jenny, “I’d rather do this.”

The teacher read us a Halloween story today at school,” Margaret said, and began telling it. Jenny listened eagerly. Nothing she ever did at home could compare with the thrilling things that happened at school. She’d be glad when next year came and she could start to school.

“I gotta go to the toilet,” Jenny announced. She left the door open as she went outside into the
dark chilly autumn air. She left the door open as she went outside and a square of light fell on the porch from the open door.

“Shut the door,” called Mother, “or the wind will blow out the lamp.” Jenny pretended not to hear, so Mother shut the door herself and the comforting square of light vanished. Jenny started for the toilet, but the tall building loomed up on the little rise in the land, so dark and foreboding that she squatted down in the shadow close to the house..

She heard the weeds rustle. The moon had a mist in front of it tonight. She thought she saw a shadow move near a tree and thought that it might be a banshee or a bat or a witch. She finished her errand as quickly as possible, and dashed into the house, quite out of breath. Margaret was lighting the candle in her jack-o-lantern.

“I’ll bet you wish you could still light yours,” she said in an overbearing manner. Jenny didn’t say anything. She picked up her dark jack-o-lantern and looked longingly at Margaret’s lighted one. She asked Mother for another candle, but Mother said that’s all there were Margaret set her lighted jack-o-lantern on yhr window ledge and said, “This willl keep the spooks away."

“Oh, phooey,” said Jenny, “Anybody knows there’s no such thing as spooks.”

THE RUN-AWAY ROOSTER

“Roy, go chop that rooster’s head off for me, will you?” Mother said to the hired man, who was little more than a boy. I put him in the crate last night. Kind of old, but he will be all right for chicken and noodles.”

Jenny followed Roy as he took the big gray rooster out of the crate and carried him by the feet toward the tree stump guillotine, The unfortunate creature squawked in protest, as though he knew what was in store for him. Suddenly his feet slipped from the hired man’s grasp and he began his run for freedom. Jenny stood there wide eyed, as the big rooster ran madly, squawking all the while. Mother and the hired man decided that between the two of them, they should be able to catch him. The chase began, a gangly youth and a woman in sun bonnet and apron, trying to capture a frightened rooster. Jenny watched all the excitement.

Suddenly, the dazed rooster plunged blindly toward Jenny, knocking her down. One of his sharp spurs scratched her cheek as she fell. She skinned her nose and scraped her hands on the hard ground as she fell. Jenny was too bewildered to move. She lay on the ground and cried helplessly until Mother got there to assist her to her feet.

As soon as the hired man saw that she was all right, he began to laugh uncontrollably, a free unfettered laugh that may be experienced only in carefree youth. It apparently struck him as an enormous joke that a rooster could knock a little girl off her feet. Even Mother didn’t think it very serious.

As for Jenny, she considered it a bitter and humiliating thing that had happened to her. The end of her nose stung and her hands burned. Most of all, it was insulting to think that a chicken could knock her over. So many things could hurt her; so many things were bigger than she was.

THE ROAD TO SUNDAY SCHOOL

On Sunday mornings in the summer, Daddy would take Margaret and Jenny to the Presbyterian Church in town where Sunday School began at ten o”clock and lasted for a whole hour. They would be scrubbed and brushed and dressed in their best clothing , carrying dainty hankies with coins tied in one corner for the collection . Mother would put a tiny dab of lovely smelling perfume on their hankies.

Jenny’s favorite route to Church was the one that led through the “Toonerville” town, a few blocks of tiny unpainted houses, outdoor toilets and sheds, with bare ground, unkempt junk filled yards where ragged children and scrawny pets played. There were always goats climbing on sheds and housetops or tethered in the yards. Tire swings hung from low branches with ditches worn underneath from many feet. Once Jenny saw a boy on wooden stilts. Sometimes there would be a kite flying high overhead, and in midsummer, many yards had tall hollyhocks planted around rubbish piles , which gave beauty to even the meanest surroundings. There was no electrical, water or telephone service in the area.

Another nearby route led through a tree shaded road where the town’s untreated sewage ran into a small creek. The affluent people in town hardly gave a thought as to what happened after they flushed their stools or ran dirty water down the drain. The important thing to them was that it made life tidier and easier for them. When Daddy and Margaret and Jenny took this road on a hot summer morning with the car windows rolled down, Jenny and Margaret would pinch their nostrils shut and say in nasally voices “Phew! I smell the sewer.” Nothing on the whole farm ever smelled this bad. Daddy sometimes took the civilized route down Main Street and turned west onto another paved street that led to the Church, but it wasn’t nearly as “scenic.” Perhaps he too enjoyed the more colorful route. Possibly it reassured him that life on the farm wasn’t half bad.

While the girls were in Sunday School, he would either hang out at the filling station where his brother worked, or at the drug store run by his brother-in-law. It was a pleasant way for him to spend the hour. When Sunday School was over he might take the girls to the drug store for ice cream or to the filling station for pop. It was still early enough that it wouldn’t ruin their appetites for lunch. He took much joy in being able to provide occasional treats for his beloved daughters.

THE PIN TRAY

Jenny and her best friend Susan were looking around in the variety store.

“I have a whole dime to spend today,” Jenny told Susan. “I didn’t spend my nickel last week and I have my nickel allowance for today.” Jenny jingled the money happily in her white silk pocketbook with the beaded duck that she had gotten at her birthday party last year when she was six.

“You could buy two candy bars,” Susan said brightly.

Jenny gave her a scornful glance.

“I already know what I’m going to buy. I picked it out last week. That’s why I saved my nickel. It costs a dime.”

“Well, what is it?”

“A pin tray for Mother. Every time she sews, she says she wishes she had a little tray to keep her pins in. I’m going to buy it and give it to her on Mother’s Day next month.”

Jenny took Susan by the hand and led her to the place where the pin tray was. Yes, it was still there. It was a tiny oval shaped silver tray with a Scotty dog in relief on the side of it. It was delicately fluted around the edge.

“Isn’t it beautiful!” Jenny sighed.

Susan said, “I think it’s an ash tray.

“No, it isn’t!” insisted Jenny. She didn’t want it to be an ash tray. The very idea that it could be an ash tray made it seem less precious.

Jenny and Susan stood there for a long time. The clerk kept walking right past them to wait on other more prosperous looking customers. Finally Jenny took one of the nickels out of her pocketbook and tapped it loudly on the glass that divided the counter. The clerk came over, and eying her coldly, asked, “Well, what do you want?”

“I want to buy this,” and Jenny pointed to the pin tray and handed her the two nickels.

The pin tray was small enough to fit into Jenny’s pocketbook, making it bulge just a little, but no one noticed. As soon as she got home, she hid it in a shoe box of her treasures (some rocks and shells she had found) where no on else would look. It was still several weeks until Mother’s Day.

On the morning of Mother’’s Day, before breakfast, Jenny went to the shoe box and pulled out the pin tray. Her heart was beating rapidly. This was the first present she had ever bought for Mother all by herself.

“I got you something for Mother’s Day,” Jenny said timidly.

“For me?” Mother asked in an animated voice.

Jenny handed her the pin tray.

“It’s to keep your pins in,” Jenny explained.

She could tell that Mother was pleased. “Well, thank you, thank you.. You knew just what I wanted all right. It’s just the thing.” She put it on the table for all to see.

Both Daddy and Margaret agreed that it was a fine gift. Jenny didn’t know when she had been happier.

After dinner that day, Aunt Edith and Uncle Charles came over from a nearby town to spend the afternoon. Their children, one older than Margaret and the other a little younger, were not along. Jenny loved to hear Aunt Edith talk. She had a beautiful musical voice. Her favorite expression was, “Well, for pity’s sake,” and she said it often.

“Let me show you the nice gift that Jenny got me,” Mother said. When Aunt Edith saw the little silver tray, she joked, “It’s very cute, but I didn’t know you smoked Mae.”

“I don’t, of course. It’s a pin tray for me to use when I sew.”

“Why, of course. I should say,” Aunt Edith said, and Jenny saw that eye twinkling amused look pass between them that adults think children don’t understand.

Jenny went outside and sat on the edge of the brick walk. She put her arm around the dog, who wagged his tail and licked her face. The pin tray had turned into an ash tray and Jenny’s joy had turned to ashes. Now it seemed as if the wonderful gift was all wrong.
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THE PIE

All afternoon Mother baked and cooked. On a hot summer day, it made the kitchen like an oven. Mother’s forehead was beaded with perspiration. The threshers would be there for supper. Never let it be said that she couldn’t set a good table.

Mother had baked three lemon meringue pies. She had also baked a smaller one in Jenny’s plate, the aluminum baby plate with the ABC’s around the rim.

“Is that mine?” Jenny asked.

Mother had answered, “Yes,” absently, thinking Jenny was referring to the plate.

The tired hungry threshers came in late that evening. Mother had already given Jenny something to eat, thinking she might put her to bed early. There was a bigger crew than Mother had anticipated. She put heaping bowls and platters of food on the table, but they were soon emptied. She kept filling the men’s glasses with iced tea.

It was time for dessert. Mother cut the three big pies and the little one. Jenny set up a big howl when she saw Mother serve pie to the men from her baby plate. She had thought that was to be all hers. She went off in the corner and sobbed by herself.

“What’s a matter?” on of the men sympathetically inquired.

“Oh, she’s just tired,” Mother told him . “Time she was in bed.”

Jenny didn’t want to go to bed. She wanted some pie. Mother hadn’t paid much attention to her all day, and those intruders were eating her pie.

THE OLD SORGHUM LAPPER

The bent old man walked slowly down the hard gray ribbon of a road that led to the Barnes farm. It was about noon by the sun and he was looking forward to Mae’s good cooking.

“They’ll sure be surprised to see me,” he chortled to himself.

These were bright spots in Old Tom’s life, the golden autumn months, when he came to this part of the country to visit old friends. Most of the year he occupied a tiny room in his sister’s house out in Almena, but in the autumn, he grew restless and would set out afoot to visit families he had worked for as a hired man in his younger days. He had worked for Mae’s parents for a number of years. Though they were now dead, he visited their daughters and their son. He never forgot anyone who had treated him well and fairly. Sometimes he visited for a few days, sometimes for a few weeks, and if everything was going well, he might stay on into the winter.

Old Tom’s attire consisted of a soiled baggy dress suit, a grease spotted vest, a striped shirt and an elegant gold watch chain. On his head he wore a gray derby hat. His tangled brush of a moustache often caught food particles when he ate and could produce unusual noises when he drank. He was not known for frequent bathing, but maintained himself as best he could.

Some folks said Old Tom was a bit simple minded and others said he was just peculiar. He was the butt of many a joke. Mother said he had more sense than most of the people who said these things about him, and that if everyone were as good hearted as he was, the world would be in better shape than it is now. He adored children, and many times he would rock a colicky baby until it fell asleep. There was a photo in the drawer of Old Tom holding Margaret when she was a tiny baby, which showed pride and joy and tenderness in his countenance. If he had a few spare dollars left from his old age assistance, he would bring nice gifts to the ladies and children. He loved being the bearer of news, both good and bad. He enjoyed reminiscing about the “good old days.” He was no longer physically able to do farm work. He had a serious hernia from the heavy lifting he had once done.

They had watched him coming down the road, but Mother said they should pretend surprise,
and above all, act very glad to see him, no matter what. He was not always so well received by busy people who did not want to trouble with this strange old fellow. Margaret fell right into the act and thought it great fun. Daddy was usually congenial to all.

A grin spread across Old Tom’s face as he knocked at the door. Nor was he disappointed, for he received the heartiest of welcomes and the hoped for exclamations of surprise.

Jenny had been playing on the other side of the house and had not seen Old Tom come in.

Mother called, “Jen-ny! Time for dinner . Come in and eat now.”

Jenny trotted to the house and opened the door. She spied the old man and stared at him for a few seconds. Then he swooped her up off the floor and lifted her high into the air, rubbing his stiff moustache against her tender face.

“You remember me, don’t you Dinny? ” he croaked hoarsely in his husky old voice.

“Put me down,” screamed Jenny, and burst into wild sobs. Old Tom set her down in injured surprise.

“Ding bust it. I didn’t mean to scare or hurt the little un.”

Jenny ran to Daddy, who was standing nearby. He put his arms comfortingly around her and sat down in the chair and bounced her around until her sobs subsided and she began laughing as hard as she had been sobbing.

“Now, you don’t ever have to be afraid of that old Sorghum Lapper again,” Daddy said. “He
would never hurt you. He’s nothing but an old Sorghum Lapper.”

THE MOVING PICTURE SHOW

Mother said that if Daddy got home from the field in time, they might go to the moving picture show. Margaret and Jenny had just had shampoos and baths. Jenny paraded around, swathed in a big towel. It felt good to be so clean after a week of sweaty playing in the hot dusty August weather.

“We’re going to see Shirley Temple,” said Margaret. “She’s the prettiest little girl in the whole world.”

Jenny asked, “Will she be in town?”

“Of course not,” Margaret explained. “There will be big moving pictures of her on a screen on the stage. She lives in Hollywood, California. That’s where they make movies. It’s a long ways west of here.”

Jenny went into the parlor and looked at the western horizon where the sun always went down. Margaret had been to a movie once when she stayed with her cousin in town for a week. Jenny had never seen a movie. Mother said that some people went to every movie that was shown in town. She said she guessed that was all right if people had nothing better to do with their money. Jenny knew that going to the show must be very expensive.

Finally Daddy came home on the tractor. He did the chores, got his bath in the horse tank behind the barn and then got dressed in clean clothes, wearing a clean white shirt and his good trousers, while Mother got supper. Jenny was so exited about going to the show that she could scarcely eat a bite. She thought they would never all be ready, but at last they were.

After the drive to town, they got out of the car and walked toward the Blair theater in the refreshing cool of the summer evening. Jenny was awed by the red. yellow and orange lights that ran around and around the sign made of little light bulbs without ceasing like water flowing. Daddy walked up to the glassed- in ticket window.

“Two adult’s and two children’s,” he said. Jenny was so proud of Daddy. No matter where they went or what they did, he always knew what to do. He was never ever frightened.

As they walked through the first door, Jenny could smell pop corn, and she saw a pop corn machine. Some people were buying sackfuls, but Jenny didn’t ask for any because Mother had already said they wouldn’t buy any pop corn at the movies, that it was just too expensive. A big boy in a white uniform with red braid on it and a matching cap, pushed aside a velvet curtain and shone his flashlight so they could see to walk down the sloping carpeted aisle. The floor seemed to fall away under Jenny’s feet as she walked. The boy showed them a place where the four of them could sit. All around Jenny could see the silhouettes of many heads.

“Watch the picture,” Mother said to Jenny. but a tall man was sitting in front of her and she couldn’t see the screen, so Mother traded places with Jenny and told Jenny she could stand on her knees in her seat. This was much better. They were showing the last part of the Shirley Temple movie and would be showing it again. Jenny gazed intently at the bright screen. How fast the people moved and how fast they all talked. Everywhere they went, it was raining, even inside buildings and houses, but they didn’t seem to get wet. Jenny thought the little girl with the curls and dimples was very pretty indeed. She sang and danced and laughed and cried. She must have a whole closet full of beautiful dresses.

Jenny’s eyes burned. She looked away from the screen and up at the ceiling. From up high and to the back she could hear a faint hum. She saw some beams of light. It looked like fireflies were flitting back and forth in the beams. Somebody from the balcony threw down their empty pop corn sack. Jenny wondered where it landed.

Next there were pictures of Mickey and Minnie Mouse. They were being chased by a cat with big feet. The children in the first rows screamed with laughter, but Jenny couldn’t find anything funny about the stuttering animals as they jerked nervously about the screen, smashing into things and always chasing or being chased. After the cartoon, there were pictures of real people, men making speeches, a woman flying an airplane, soldiers marching, and the king and queen of England with their two little girls. Then the Shirley Temple movie began again and after a long while Daddy said, “This is where we came in,” and started to get up. Jenny was glad it was time to go.

The lights outside the theater seemed dazzlingly bright. The sky was totally dark by now. It was a different world inside the theater and it was different than when they had gone in. Jenny got her directions turned around and didn’t know her way back to the car.

“How’d you like the show, Jenny?” Daddy asked.

"It was Okay.” Jenny said. She wished she looked like Shirley Temple.

Margaret said she just loved the show. All the way home she kept singing, “It’s a gooood ship, lol-lee-pop. It’s a sweeet trip. To the can-deeee shop. And there you are . Hap-py landing on a chocolate bar.” This was one of the songs that Shirley Temple had sung.

“Say, does it rain a lot in Hollywood, California where they make the movies?” Jenny wanted to know.

“Well, I suppose it rains a lot more than it does here,” said Mother.

So that was it. That was the reason it was raining all the time at the show.